Hey there little brother. I tried to call you the other night. I miss you. I wish there was a way to rewind the clock. The last few days have been a blur of disbelief and despair. I feel so weak and lost. The only comfort I can feel right now is knowing that you are with Dad and Nana, and so many others who have gone beyond this world. I didnt get to say goodbye, but then again I wouldnt know how to anyway. How do say goodbye to someone you love so much, someone who wasnt even supposed to leave? I dont know what to do with myself. Sleep only comes in short spurts, and my mind is flooded with all the what if’s, and remember whens. Each time I am able to drift off for a while, I wake up to this reality that you are not here anymore, and my heart drops all over again. I keep asking God why. Why did this have to happen? Why take the one with the biggest heart, the one who wanted so badly to fight the demons that tormented him? Why take the one who genuinely wanted to live and be free of the monster called addiction. I know you fought hard, I know you loved hard too, everyone who knew you knew how good you were all the way through. Your smile was infectious. The sound of your voice. Those big blue eyes… It’s not fair. I want you back. I want another chance for you. I want you to have the beautiful life you deserve. I want our family to be whole again, but reality tells me that nothing will ever be the same. I want you to know that I am so proud of you. I cant say it enough. And I love you beyond my ability to describe. Everywhere I look I’m hoping for a sign of some kind to reassure me that you are still around. My heart hurts so much. I will keep you alive in my heart and my mind, and I will be proud of you forever, I swear it. I’ll never stop wishing for just one more hug or visit or phone call, but I know that one more of anything could never be enough. You will always be with me in my memories, I remember tag team dirt pile wrestling with Paul & Diane. You had to take a time out because you got a phone call from a girl. That day was a blast, and we were all covered in sand flea bites for a week. But it was worth it. I remember the pool parties at Mom’s and the kids all had to make it their mission to throw Uncle Wes in the pool, most of the time you threw them all in first, but there were a few times you let them push you in. They loved those times. They still talk about it and smile and laugh. As adults our visits were not as frequent as we’d wanted them to be, but no matter what we never doubted our bond. I loved you without measure. After you hurt your hand at work and and grew dependent on painkillers, I knew you were suffering with addiction. That addiction became a horrible monster, and it altered your perception of yourself, but it did not change how I felt about you.That monster made you feel like a disappointment to your family, It made you feel embarrassed and you hid from all of us by staying away for weeks and months at a time so that none of us would see it. But I want you to know that your demon didnt fool me, I knew you, I knew your heart. I knew you were brave and strong. You had to be to fight a demon like that. I was proud of you even on your darkest days, proud to have you for my brother,and proud of you for sharing those weaknesses with me, and always saying you were going to keep trying to beat it. You fought hard, and you fought a great many times. But unforunately that monster didnt care. It didnt care that we all loved you. It didnt care that we needed you. It didnt care that you deserved another chance to try for that beautiful life you deserve. That demon took you from us and didnt care how much despair we are left with. It didnt care that although it was not our own personal demon, we will have to live the rest of our lives with the scars from the hole left in our hearts because it took you from us. I want you to know that I will tell your story every chance I get. I will tell people how beautiful and strong you were. I will tell people how gentle and kind you were. I will tell people how hard you fought and wanted to be free of that terrible monster. I will educate people with your story, and if your story can help save even one persons life, then your fight will not have been for nothing. That is how we will all fight for you, that is how we will defeat that demon. I will hurt, grieve, and mourn losing you for the rest of my life, but you will not have to hurt or suffer or fight anymore.You are free of that monster. You are home now. You are safe now. And you are probably looking down on me right now telling me “stop the mushy stuff and dry your tears. I love you sis. I’m ok now.” So, as you used to tell me when we were young.. See ya round like a donut… I love you Wes. Rest easy my beautiful little brother. Someday I will find you again. Until then…. Tam

I will forever love and miss you wes!!! Your fight here is over but now you have a new job! Your an angel…. my angel….. i know that you are smiling down on all of us. You would be so happy to know that we all are getting along and being a big happy family, just as you always wanted….. i know that you are peaceful and probably catching alot of crabs and fish with your daddy…… cast a good line out there darling…… keep watching over me. Sleep peacefully until we meet again…… i will forever love you!!!!! Miss you so much already…..

Jan, as your Friend over the years, I know that you are a devoted and loving Daughter, Mother, Grandmother, and Great Grandmother. I also know you have given your Heart and Soul, not only to your Family, but to your Friends and countless other people through your loving and compassionate efforts and actions. I for one, am Blessed to call you Friend. From my conversations with you, I know that you did your very best over the years to lay a foundation for success and guidance for Wes. Be comforted in knowing that You were always there for Wes, for any reason, and that He loved you unconditionally. The times I had interacting with Wes, was always so positive and left me with the feeling that He was a Kind and Gentle Soul. He was always smiling and it was contagious. I was deeply saddened by the news of his passing and I extend my sincere condolences to You and your Family during this difficult time. May Gods light shine on You and your Family, and carry his Soul to Heaven where He will be surrounded by Gods Eternal Love. Many Blessings to You and Yours…